When I look back upon the past 24 hours, I can still feel the trauma and despair that came with the unraveling of the presidential election results – the unanimous claims of a certain Clinton victory by pollsters at the beginning, the violent flip of the needle on NYT’s live forecast model, the narrowing paths for Clinton as battleground states fell to the GOP, and the ominous, quiet atmosphere at Javits Center when John Podesta asked supporters to go home. By the time Donald Trump came on stage to start his victory speech, I knew our country will never be the same again. I could almost imagine him saying, “So, Hillary, now you see that evil will always triumph, because good is dumb,” from the annals of Spaceball quotes. The result reenforced my disillusionment with our country. With society. With human nature. That people can be so easily brainwashed by fear and hate. That bullying and bullshitting outplayed dedication and hard work. And that sexism and misogyny remains so ingrained even in a country like ours that prides itself on equality. Melody went to sleep early, saddened by the cold new world in which we’ll raise our baby. Even my parents, who were first-time registered voters, became disillusioned by the results. They had been staying with us for almost 2 months now, helping with the baby, weeding our yards, and even assisting with candy duty on Halloween. Westley wasn’t really down with his penguin costume, although we did a pretty good job shifting his sleep schedule to adjust for DST while Melody was attending a conference in Denver. Now with both of us getting sick again and my parents getting ready to return home tomorrow, we prepare for uncertain, busier times ahead.